Friday, March 30, 2018
I've had a stressful week. Nothing major, just a lot of little stresses that built up. For me, sometimes those little things can be worse. It takes longer for me to come back down to base-line, and if I'm not in a good or neutral space before the next trigger happens, I will be brought further from it. When I'm dealing with a lot of external stressors, it affects me internally. I become irritable, this week I've been dealing with body image issues; and I become anxious, depressed, and paranoid. I've been trying my best to come back to the promises I made to myself in my Serenity post. When I caught myself staring and obsessing over a body part, I told myself to stop. It was just going to get worse. I stopped myself from engaging or engaging further with people who were stressing me out. I rationalized as best I could when I started to feel panicky. I also have been doing my best to let things go, and remind myself other people probably are not thinking and obsessing on things the way I am. I'm looking forward to this weekend, I just got new CBD oil, and I get to give my nephew some awesome Easter presents.