Thursday, December 29, 2016
One of the hardest things for me is accepting I'm struggling or I've stumbled. Not in a, "I can't admit when I've messed up" kind of way, but in a, "I'm going to beat myself up and dwell on this for days, maybe weeks." As I mentioned in my last blog, I'm really trying to work on my anger. In the past few days I've started doing yoga 1-2 times a day, practicing mindful walking whenever I can, and doing my best to avoid things I know will irritate/frustrate me and lead into anger. I've also struggled. I got into Facebook debates when I should have stayed away, and tonight I let self-hatred consume me until I was angry and disgusted with myself. I'm trying to be kind to myself, mindful, and move on. There's a saying in DBT, "don't judge your judging," and people don't realize how difficult that can be. One of the things I struggle with is staying away from Facebook debates. I'll see a comment that is just so ignorant that I have to comment. It usually just causes me stress. I need to get better at avoiding those.