Wednesday, January 6, 2016

January of Me-Day 4

Starting Thoughts
I have been getting better at distracting my brain from intrusive thoughts. I woke up and immediately started feeling despair over death, and was able to refocus my thought quicker than I have been in past weeks. The real challenge will be when things are not going well for me, which is usually when I struggle the most. I'm trying hard to use my skills on a daily basis so they come naturally to me even in the worst of times.

  • Scheduled a coffee date with an old friend from High School.
  • Planned to go to my brother-in-law's birthday dinner on Sunday.
  • Made a date for Friday.

Mindfulness/Other DBT Skills
  • A student made a paper flower for me.
  • Spent some time hanging out with the new roommate.
  • Butted heads a bit with a co-worker who's very alpha, but I stood my ground and was proud.
  • Someone I admire a lot said he was very impressed with my hula hooping.
End Thoughts
If I'm being honest with myself, I've been down this road before, and this is how the cycle always begins. I am doing great, being independent, making progress. Then, something goes wrong. A job loss, a breakup, whatever; and it all falls apart.  Or I meet and become obsessed with someone, and stop focusing on me. How am I going to sustain this? How is this time going to be different? These are the questions I always ask myself.

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