As the year comes to a close, it's time to focus on my 2016 "life lessons." For those of you new to my blog, let me explain. A few years ago I stopped making resolutions and instead started coming up with quotes and sayings that I would try and base my behavior on or around. These could be already existing quotes, quotes I made up, or something a friend inspired. The following are my 2016 life lessons, and what they mean to me.
Life is a mile and 1/2 on the turf, not a sprint
My new found love of horse racing inspired this one. It seems pretty simple at first. Life is hard, it's not a cake walk. For me, though, it has more meaning. I'm often in a rush to do things before I "run out of time." How many years left to get married? Have kids? Lets add this age to this number of years. It makes me anxious, and I don't want to live like that.
The road to progress is not linear
In 2015 one of my life lessons was, "no one has the right to judge your journey but you." Imagine if you came across a man; dirty, bloody, beaten, and rambling. You might think he's just some crazy bum, but what you don't know is he has been walking for miles and has endured many hardships. You weren't there for that part of his journey, so you can only judge him on how he is now. It's like that with mental illness. The only person who has been on my journey from start until now, is me. Sometimes I lose sight of this when I have a bump in the road. What a lot of people do not realize about progress is that it's not a straight and narrow road. I'm going to make mistakes. Sometimes the same ones. Sometimes my progress will be so small that you won't even notice. But it's still progress.
"What a treacherous thing to believe a person is more than a person."
This quote comes from the John Green book, "Paper Towns," and rings so true for someone with BPD. If I look back to all the times I struggled most this past year 9/10 it revolved around people; people I put on that BPD pedestal, people I split on the most often. I really don't think this needs anymore explanation other than it fits with the core component of BPD that I struggle with most.