Life is full of contradictions, and for someone like me that can be very frustrating.
"Stay in the moment" vs "things will get better"
I can't both stay in the moment and hope for a better future. I'm too black and white, I am trying to find that gray area.
Glass half empty: I have to surrender my car, I have no money, no job, I had to give up the therapy I was supposed to start, I'm being forced to move to a different state, and I have no income.
Glass half full: Surrendering my car will free up a huge bill for me monthly, I'll have one less thing to do when I move (switching my registration and plates), I am very used to taking public transit to jobs, I have a place to stay and it's not with a stranger but with a friend, the only bill I have is my phone ($45 a month) so I have a lot more space to save.
This is why life is contradictory. Because being "in the moment" means thinking about the glass being half empty. In order to think more positive I need to think ahead.
Sigh, I think too much.