The reason I am so insecure and constantly fear abandonment in relationships, has less to do with the person I am seeing and more to do with how I see myself.
Because while I know I have good qualities, I can't see why anyone would want to stay with my for the long run. I see all my negative traits far outweighing and over shadowing my good traits, and I just assume the only reason someone would want to stay with me would be for physical reasons.
My self-esteem distorts my thinking and my distorted thinking lowers my self-esteem.
It's a vicious cycle, but I am trying my best to break out of it.