I have been trying to be more conscious of my thoughts and living in the present moment. When my thoughts start to wander I have been doing my best to bring them back to the present. If for some reason I cannot, then I've started turning negative thoughts of the future into positive ones. For example if I start fretting over dying alone or even just getting older, I remind myself that I am not alone. There are many people who are around me that will grow old with my, most of all family. I also remind myself of my spiritual beliefs.
The main thing I am trying to learn and remember is that life is constantly in flux. I am trying to move away from teh thought process that if I just achieve certain things in my life then I will be happy. I cannot wait for happiness to happen, I have to be happy now. In Living a Life of Awareness the author says, "With awareness, notice when you attach to the idea of happiness in the future. When this happens say to yourself, 'I won't wait for happiness. I choose to be happy now."
I talked to one of my step brothers and he told me to try and meditate for 20 minutes in the morning and 20 minutes in the afternoon. The key is finding a mantra. I think mine is going to be, "today." It's simple and it reminds me of where my mind is suppose to be.
Now here is the thing. Right now I am happy and positive, but the challenge for me will be when things aren't going as well. I'm hoping the more I practice skills and meditation while I am in a good mood, the easier it will be when I'm in a bad mood. This week alone, as I said, I've done a good job of reeling my thoughts back in.
I'm also signing up to volunteer. I start at the Animal shelter on Monday, and I signed up to be a Big Sister at BB/BS. I think this will help me. I want to help people, it's my goal in life.
My next post I am going to write down my goals.
One moment at a time. One day at a time.