I've decided that whatever happens between Pete and me I will accept. I'm sick of worrying and fretting over it. Even if we don't date I know we'll still be able to be intimate. And above all, at least he'll be in my life.
I'd rather have some than nothing. The way I see it, I enjoy being close to him and I'm fairly confident we'll still be able to have that even if we're not dating. I figure if I try to pressure him into something then everything could get taken from me.
If I try to force something then he might not be in my life at all. I don't want that. Also, I need good transitions. I have a hard time just severing ties with someone. I want to be with him, and if that means it's as friends, intimate friends, or whatever....at least he'll be in my life.
Maybe the next guy I date (if not him) will be poly and I'll be able to be with both of them. Maybe I'll find someone and it will be a bit easier saying goodbye to "that" part of our relationship. Or maybe he'll find someone else or move away, and it will hurt, but I'm not going to spend my time wondering about the future.