Ugh, I just want it to stop. I hate feeling this way. I hate trying to make myself feel better, but only feeling worse. I hate being in this frame of mind. I can't stop dwelling on things, and every time I try to get my mind off of it, it just gets worse. This whole acting opposite thing is difficult. It's even worse that Pete is in a crabby mood. Because then I feed off of that, and it makes my bad mood worse.
I hate this time of year. I'm trying to be positive, I really am. But, I just feel like I'm in a cycle and it won't stop. Everything he says I'll probably take the wrong way, I'll worry about what I say, I'll worry about how he says things, how I say things.
Stop it, brain, just stop it.