Tuesday, March 11, 2014

An Open Letter

Dear Emotion Mind,

Stop it. Just stop it, okay? Why do you do this to me? Why do you have to battle me every day? Can't you just give it a rest? Can't you see I'm trying? Can't you see that I'm trying to change the way you make me think? Why can't you just cooperate? You were doing just fine. Minding your own business,  not analyzing everything, not making me go crazy with worry. Why is it when someone doesn't reply to me you have to go into overdrive? He's in pain and he's probably sleeping. Why does everything have to be something? Why do you need to make me think there is something underlying? Why do you suddenly make me forget the positive? Just because he doesn't reply it does not mean he's getting ready to tell me he never wants to see me again. No you're making me want to call, text, until I get a response. Guess what? You're not going to win. If I do that then you're going to make me judge myself. So, I'm just going to ignore you until the feeling goes away. I'm also not going to judge myself for letting you get to me. I'm really trying here, can't you for once cut me a break?

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